Fuck my life!

God help me please i dont know what to do im so confused and pissed off. Well yesterday i went to wonderland wif like 3 diffrent groups of people but the groups kept getting split up. i didnt know what to do i was so stressed , i had to make a really big decision i think i may of made the wrong one but i had already made it, i really wanted to be wif valeria and dianis but i felt bad for nataly cause i knew she would feel left out , im not mean person to someone that is tryin so hard to be my friend. What the hell is wrong wif me why do i make so many stupid decisions. Gosh im so lost, even though i had a really great time i cant help but to feel that they hate me now and thats the last thing i wanted to happen , i need someone to please just end all this drama why cant everyone put aside there diffrences and just get along. Fuck i need help. I wanna just kill myself so this all ends, damnit. Im sorry if i make bad decisions i guess i cant be perfect. Im sorry alirght thats all i can say im sorry i tryed my best to stay wif everybody i even cryed cause i felt so bad. PLEASE im just hoping whoever is mad that they will understand what happened and that things will just go back to normal, if not i guess i have to learn not to want everybody to be friends. Just please dont be mad at me!!:(